thoughts of a developer...

Life is like a program, there's a problem you need to analyze. Then you plan for it and design it very well. When all the requirements and designs are done,you start the coding. During the coding phase, we encountered errors and these spiced up your program. Coding takes time unless you design it perfectly. But, as most people said, there is no such thing as perfect in this world, only perfect intentions. As long as it serves its purpose, the program will always be perfect for the problem. when coding is done, you need to test it. Usually, bugs are found in this phase but then as you debug and fix the problems and errors that occurred, most of the errors can be eliminated. Then, after the errors and problems that you'd faced, there it is. The program you just created will be release, fresh but full of experiences.

Gitara

sa tuwing makikita kang mag-isa 

lalapit sayo’t sasamahan ka

mayamaya pa’y kakalungin ka 

at ang kanta’y sisimulan na

katawan mong pagal aking hahaplusin

sa yakap ika’y aking pupuspusin

mga daliring hindi na mapigilan

nasasabik nang ika’y kanyang dampian

sandaling dampian ka ng aking mga daliri

sa iyong makikintab na labi

anim man itong pilit na kakapain

tunog mong dala’y sasabayan pa rin 

 ngunit kahit anong sabay aking gawin

pilit na pinagsasalita ang iyong mga labi

hanggang ngayo’y di ko pa rin mawari

tunog na sambit aking di mabatid

wala na nga sa ating nangyayari 

sinasambit mo’y di talaga mawari 

tunog na nais ay di makamit 

nang mga daliring kumakalabit 

tutal wala na rin nmang nagbabago 

wala na rin namang nabubuo 

mabuti pang ihiga na lang kita sa kama 

at hahayaan na lang ulit na mag-isa

mas mabuti nga siguro tigilan ko na 

ang kahibangang ito 

ang masabayan ka ay isang panaginip 

panaginip na malabo ng mangyari pa

at sa saglit ngang ika’y aking iiwanan 

nangangahulugan ba ito ng iyong paglisan 

dahil ikakatakot kong makita 

matinding sakit na aking madarama 

ang tanging hiling ko sa iyo sa iyong paglisan 

maging totoo dahil ang pinakamahirap sa mga ito 

ay ang ika’y iwanan ko

-November 9, 2007

the way of losing yourself...

It's Friday and here i am, doomed in the dark, feeling emotional.
I thought all things will not be the same after years of having myself suffer from other's disparging eyes. Yet this day i felt again those eyes, those eyes that once judged my entire life.